Last week my
son woke me up by saying, “Hi, Beautiful” Okay, so besides the fact that I
literally melted on the spot; I couldn’t be prouder of him. How many of us are
raising boys or have boys in our lives? Probably because I’m single mom over
here, but Kevie has turned into a total sweetheart with women. It can be a
battle sometimes depending on the father. Some men are uncomfortable talking
about even a fragment of a feeling, others have fragile masculinity so bad that
if they had to refer to a woman as anything other than a bitch it would be like
pulling teeth, and then there are some that are healing and trying. I’m raising
mine to be that man who is loving, respectful, shows his feelings, can say “Mom,
I’m so proud of myself!” and to try his best. It’s not easy, but I’m just
encouraging him to keep being his unique little magnificent self. Isn’t that
all we can do in the end? Last week I also had a moment. A very emotional just
cry my eyes out for an hour type of moment. I’m happy to be back in the house.
Kevin is back in his routine and I’m getting back into mine, kind of. I pull up
in the driveway and it doesn’t feel quite the same anymore. I don’t feel as
comfortable in this house anymore. There’s just been this enormous amount of
stress and sadness on my back for a while, and I totally had to release it all and
pray. After crying to God and barely even able to articulate my thoughts and
feelings; I opened my bible and then cried more. Haha, of course,
Who wouldn’t
cry after getting that message though?! 👆This has definitely been a Job season
for me. I was saying to God, “I know I keep praying for wisdom, but I think I’m
going to 86 the wisdom part and ask for happiness this time.” Anyways, it was uplifting and hopefully soon
things will turn around. Keep on keepin’ on.
Lastly, there
is a mystery afoot. I have received two pieces of mail by the name of Stephanie
Lewis in the past month??! The first was some uniform company and this last one
was a flyer thingy for I think Royal Caribbean Cruise lines?! I laughed out
loud at this last one. I’m not entirely sure but I think after a certain amount
of time, I shouldn’t be getting anything with that last name anymore, but I
guess maybe not. It’s sort of tripping me out seeing Stephanie Lewis twice in one
month. In a perplexed, #9, HUH?! Type of way.
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